Sunday, November 11, 2012

Let it be.

I have learned that not everyone will chose to "grow up". The examples that I could give of this situation are astounding. I have learned that it is definitely a concious choice (unless, of course, you are unwillingly forced into adulthood by circumstances beyond your control).

When encountering such individuals, I have simply chosen to take the high road and let it be, because if they refuse to grow up then they are also refusing to change no matter how much you want them to.

To grow as a person must be done in your own time.

If your refusal to change is negatively affecting others, maybe it's time to consider it.

By growing up, I don't mean becoming a stuffy, boring person. I mean maturing. Taking resposibility in situations that you have put yourself in.

Choosing to "let things be" is part of my #selfcare, which will be my personal theme for 2013.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

#thirtydaysofthanksgiving

Today I am thankful for my little girly, my first born. Afterall, she DID make me a mom. Sometimes she drives me absolutely insane but she is also teaching me the importance of patience. She is so optimistic and full of love and I hope no one ever takes that from her. I hope she knows how much I love her and that I always try my best!

Monday, November 5, 2012

NaBloPoMo

Trying to take part in this is more difficult than I thought. Should I accept that I'm not really a blogger even though I'd really like to be?


Friday, November 2, 2012

Living the messy life.

Hi my name is Shalyn and I am a sentimental hoarder.

It's hard for me to just throw some things out and consider it a loss. Some of this may come from the teachings of my grandmother, who lived in England for World War II. Things were scarce and what they did have was rationed so they learned to keep everything they had just in case it was needed. She carried this mentality through her entire life and passed it on to her children. And her grandchildren.

Now I am faced with a massive mess that is affecting, not only me, but everyone in this house. We don't invite people over to visit because basically we can't even offer them a place to sit. We have places to sit. We just don't have extra spaces for other people to sit. Sad, I know. I long for the day when I can invite someone over for a cup of coffee and we can actually sit down at the kitchen table and enjoy it with some nice conversation. Or the day when my daughter can actually invite a friend over and I don't have to be embarrassed of my house because maybe the mom wants to come too! Aahhhhhh! And that is just completely out of the question. Speaking of the kitchen table, we don't usually eat at it. It is stacked high with art supplies, unfinished projects, homeschool things, old mail and other miscellaneous paperwork.

Every room in this house is filled to the brim with stuff. Stuff I have plans for, stuff I want to keep, stuff that needs to be packed away, stuff that I want to sell and a lot of stuff that I want to just toss out the window and never see again.

Excuses:
1) A lot of it has to do with my time constraints. With a 1 1/2 year old crafty toddler (and by crafty I mean quick and mischievous) It gets really difficult.

2) There are four people in this house making a huge mess. Do you want to guess how many people there are in this house that actually clean up? If you said one you are correct.

3) There are more important things than a clean house, right? Like spending time with the kids, cooking for my family, playing outside, homeschooling and taking field trips. It seems that we are always on the go, Which leaves little time for deep cleaning. I can get through the cooking, dishes, laundry, and other general every day clean ups, but any other cleaning that will make any sort of difference is difficult.

4) I find that there is a thin line between tossing things out/being wasteful and saving something to fix/mend. Do I really want to throw something out that is truly needed? Maybe something that just needs to be fixed but is replaceable? Will I need it in the near future? I really can't afford to be wasteful and throw out the things that will probably be used just to buy a new one later. But is that worth all the clutter? Where do I draw that line?

So have you wrapped your head around my crazy yet?

Okay so by now you are probably picturing an episode of Hoarders where things are actually stacked to the ceiling and the entire house is a safety hazard. It's not THAT bad. Yet.

The first step is admitting you have a problem, right? Yeah I admitted it along time ago, but here we are. Still sitting in a mess.

I know I am not alone here. I know there are other moms struggling with this.

I want to simplify.

I long for simplicity.

I actually dream of it.

But I don't see it any time in the near future.

And thats where the anxiety and depression come in. The feeling of failure.

And the never-ending, vicious circle.

The Plan:
I came across a post called "40 bags in 40 days". The title pretty much says it all-you get rid of one bag each day. It could be to throw away, pack up for storage or to donate. Also the bag could be a box.

This seems doable for me. But I will probably need something like 140 bags in 140 days just to get rid of this mess. Or maybe I should just call Hoarders. No seriously, I need to nip this in the bud before it becomes a serious problem. Because it's already halfway there.


So that's pretty much where I stand right now. I'm going to try to execute this plan to the best of my ability. I have to understand that if I miss a day that it's oka. I just have to jump right back in where I left off.

Pray for me.

#thirtydaysofthanksgiving

Today I am thankful for naptime.

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Halloween

Here are a few pictures from our Halloween 2012. Excuse the mess of pictures, all different sizes and such.

Juli was a witch, obviously.
 




The pumpkin that Juli carved with her Gram.

 

Jonah, what does the dragon say?
"Aarhh!"
 Close enough.
It was really hard to get a good picture of him and he wouldn't stand still long enough for me to get one of the kids together. He hated wearing the costume but kept it on just long enough.



 We don't get trick-or-treating peeps at our house so we made our cupcakes to hand out to the kids in our family.
And of course the night had to end with our traditional Halloween Chili Fritos...
(nom nom)


...and a small bottle of Moscato.

Hope everyone had a great night!

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Imperfect.

It's taken me a long time to embrace imperfection. In fact I'm not even all the way there yet. It's something I've been working on over the last few months. Working on it through art journaling, painting, & phone journaling which is how I originally wrote this post. (notepad on my phone).

Most of my life I have felt imperfect. The problem was, I equated that with something bad. As it turns out, I was feeling bad for no reason. This is who I am. Quirky, awkward, me. I'm clumsy, I stumble over my own words, I have trouble forming a sentence...I pretty much appear to be an fumbling, bumbling idiot. (Thank you, motherhood)

Thankfully, the world wide interwebz has shown me that I am not alone in my ways on this world (duh). It took me finding this amazing group of women online, mainly through Instagram, to learn this. They showed me that it's okay to be messy & not perfect & what others think is ugly can be beautiful.

In the community that I live in this is not exactly embraced. Most people around here are fake. Fake looks, fake actions, fake words, fake lives. All lies. (Too much reality TV, perhaps?) Therefore, I'm a loner Dottie, a rebel. They hold an unrealistic view of life-unattainable perfection. They look ridiculous. I used to be one of them. No more, I say! I'm embracing something that I am sure to excel at...my own imperfection. I have never felt like I belonged here but I also cannot leave. (That is another story entirely.) Until then, I rely on my online people for inspiration & motivation & ideas.

Also, I have realized that I am not other artists that I admire. I love their work & draw constant inspiration from their beautiful art & words. I am attempting to be a more original in my art which is pretty difficult since all of the ideas on Earth have been thought of & executed.

I'm not a great blog writer. These are pretty much my scattered thoughts, noted as I birthed them and lightly edited. That's all I have for now. Many other half-written blog posts in the works.

Friday, April 6, 2012

I can't wait.

Until next year. So that mornings like this:


...happen more often. Relaxed. No screaming to brush teeth & hair. No fussing to quicky get out the door. No everyone being stressed and angry because we're running late.

Because next year we're homeschooling. And I'm excited.

We had a slow, lovely morning of unbrushed hair, drop biscuits & inpromptu lessons. It was fantastic.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Pink Lemonade cupcakes.

I don't usually go boxed, but i had to try these. They taste as good as they sound!

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

I call it...Nutella cream.

I mixed about 2 tbs of cool whip with 1 tbs of yummy, smooth & creamy Nutella (small batch to test it out). Dip graham crackers or vanilla wafers in it & voila!

Friday, January 20, 2012

Pizza egg...rolls?

Trying stuff I see on Pinterest. We do a lot of that these days.
Here's one.


Not sure what these are called but the family loved them.
Egg roll wrapper + string cheese + pepperoni.





The cheese stands alone.
 

Bake at 350ish for 10-15ish minutes.




On the fine china.


 I thought they were too big so I cut everything in half.


I think as long as you take them out of the oven before this happens












 



then halves would work, too. Looks like bacon.

We dipped in pizza sauce + parmesan. I thought the wrapper was a little tough since it was baked but they were requested again so I guess they were alright.

Ooey Gooey Butter Cake


Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Stuff we made.


A few Christmas ornaments we made:

3 craft sticks (popcicle sticks) glued together in a triangle shape, school glue smeared all over with glitter sprinkled on top. Voila...a Christmas tree! Right? We thought so.

I bought a mitt-shaped wooden ornament, slapped some paint on Juli's hand, stamped it & outlined it in glitter. I wrote her name and the year on the back with a Sharpie. It's not fancy but we'll appreciate it when she's older. Also, a pine cone spray painted silver.


Food!
Juli loves pizza. She said she wants to marry it.
So that I don't feel so guilty feeding her pizza too often, I started making it on a flour tortilla. Kinda like a thin crust pizza. It still has 12 carbs but that beats a regular crust with thirty something carbs.
We layer it like so: tortilla, sauce, parmesan, mozerella, cheddar, pepperoni.
(that's mine on the right with pepperoni, cherry tomatoes, & bacon)
I usually bake it on about 350 for 10-12 minutes or just until the edges of the tortilla are nice and crispy.


So I got this bright idea that I could make a pretty cake for the kids Baptism.
Let's just say it'll be sheet cakes for me from now on. No layers, no trying to be pretty.


 Our ginger bread men:
Daddy on the left, complete with red beard & plaid shirt. Peter Griffin on the right.

 
Not only did I make this gorgeous baby boy, but I hand embroidered that whale on his onsie.
Jonah & the whale.



My first crocheted granny square came out pretty good! That's pretty much all I had time to make. One.


Once I attempted pretty organization. I bought some baskets, went to home depot to pick up some formica chip samples & chalkboard spray paint. I spray painted the formica chip & tied it to the basket with some yarn. I also have a basket labeled for sweets. Go me!


So there's some of the crafty stuff we've done recently. There's a bunch more but that's all I've got pictures of so far!

Sunday, January 8, 2012

So...Intro?



I'm starting a new blog here. I guess I'll just dive right in.
I'm a Momma to these 2 babes.


That's Juli & Jonah, 5 years & 7 months. I eat their faces.

A few words that describe me are:
-quirky
-nerdy
(not in that newfangled, stylish, nerd way but in the true, old school sense of the word)
-paranoid
 -awkward
-silly
-disorganized
-messy
-procrastinator

You get the idea.

I've got things to post tomorrow!